As a long time spiritual teacher, I have long noticed a trend in spiritual self help of chasing the light and looking for those powerful feelings of joy and overwhelming and transformative love and happiness. People of the multitudes, even those that think they want it, don’t want to ascend beyond or achieve enlightenment.
Most could never handle the pain that comes with it. Chasing only the prettiest and happiest of its multiplicity of depths and never fully even acknowledging that the fear deep in themselves. The fear of the devil… of that supernatural force that deep down, it’s only human to fear. This is what separates the men from the boys in The Occult world.
A magician that has truly had any form of initiation will unavoidably have no other choice than to manifest his own demons and face them just as vividly as they feel the depths of their own divine light and bask in the beauty of unimaginable connection to the universe. The measure of the swing to the right, is the measure of the swing to the left. And the pendulum does swing… and there is no evolution that can take place if one half of the equation is forced to remain dormant out of fear of it.
Does this mean i am asking you to go out into the world and decapitate someone for fun? No. But if you one day find that your inner demon us knocking to come out and show you something important about your own soul then it is wise to listen unless you want it to persist until it becomes something unhealthy or dangerous. Especially for those upon the left-hand path.
Your inner demon is real. Learn to discipline it and to use its Hell fire for personal gain rather than become a slave to it and to your own thoughts. Remember that Mental Transmutation, not presumptuous denial, is the weapon of the master.